• Stay Tonight

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    If i stay tonight, i will lose the fight.

    I knew better before and I should have taken a flight.

    why stay when all i do is pray that someone will come take me away?

    But maybe if you say all the truth i would think about one last day.

    If you begged and pleaded I wouldn’t care what you say.

    You have broken me too many times before that’s why i am leaving today.

    I dont want to be here anymore!

    Don’t miss me when im gone. you never did before…

    so, so long like you have never met me before because now i am going out the door.

  • Little one

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    little one, little one its time for bed.

    the day is now done now as tomorrow comes ahead

    little one little one rest your head

    come right over here my little friend

    yes that is mommies voice you hear….

    Little one little one as ill sing you goodnight my dear

    Ill hold you close so don’t you don’t fear, mommies right here.

    Now lets turn off the light with a kiss and hug so tight.

    now mommy is leaving, i love you! Goodnight

    Love, Mom

  • Let Them

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    Let them say what they say, do what they do but never let them ruin you.

    They dont care what you do, they only care about destroying you.

    All you went through showed you the truth. They dont care they will only downgrade you.

    no its not you, its what they do. An endless cycle that only destroys you.

    Break the ties, all the lies and let your soul come live.

    Let them say what they say, do what they do. But NEVER let them destroy you!

  • Live like your Dying

    Live like your Dying
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    If you were laying in your death bed right now what would you regret the most?

    What would you have wished you have done differently? Would you have laughed more? Would you have done more for yourself and your goals maybe even for others you love? Think about all of what would run through your head. When death gets near our mind gets scared and we do begin to worry about after life and where our soul goes. But what if you were able to wake up from your death bed and everything was all a dream and you were no longer sick? Would you start to live your life more freely, laugh more maybe even cry more. Hell, would you scream for the roof tops all the things you love because that second chance at life is everything. 

    Live like your Dying because the truth about life is we dont know when it all could end. So right now today live your life like it all could be gone tomorrow. Live your life like you only have days left. Travel as much as you, love harder, forgive and most importantly remember we all have a life path. we were all put on this beautiful earth for whatever reason. Its up to you to figure that out.

     During life we experience beautiful things like the birth of a child or love in marriage, friends and the pure joy of life. But for most of us we have experienced loss in some form weather it was a person, animal whatever we have lost something or someone even the hurt of an ending relationship most of us if not all of us have been there. It can leave you feeling anxiety, depression and sometimes even addiction. we forget all that matters for the hurt that happen to us to forget what in front us right now.
    
    My dad died when i was nineteen i went through suffering pain and lost myself over the years and literally hated myself and everything around me. I was so mad at the world and i just couldn't understand why him? why me? I remember questioning everything about life and then one day it hit me. I started to think about my dads final days, the things he said when he could speak and how he was scared to leave us. The last day i saw him he wanted me to play his favorite songs and hold his hand. Before i left that hospital room he kissed me goodbye and i left not knowing that would be the last time i would never see him again. That hurt me for the longest time until i started thinking what would have he done if he woke up and it was all a dream or what if that was me laying in his place? 
    
    If you were laying in your death bed right now what would you do differently? 
    life is not supposed to be easy. we have lessons and blessings. But if you still have the chance take it before its to late. We are here today but it all could be gone tomorrow. Live your life like you are dying...
    

  • Hey Mom

    Hey Mom
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    Hey mom ?

    Hey mom ?

    are you there ?

    Sometimes its like you want me to disappear…

    What would it be like if i wasn’t here?

    would have you listen or cared?

    all i wanted was for you to be there…

    Your Work is done now

    Now that my time has come

    The mother ill be is a better one!

  • A little piece of Me …

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    Before you become a mother noone tells you enough to know exactly just about what you are going to feel once that little human is in your arms. Truth is noone could ever papare you enough for that feeling. Ever

    Becoming a parent isn’t easy but the days when your laughing with your kids skipping rocks in the pond you can for once just look around and say thank you god. Thank you god for these children. Those kids can take any day and turn it all better.

    You see my girls think they are just throwing some rocks with mommy but what they don’t know is they are saving mommy. They are what hold my together on my darkest days. When I look at them I think to myself How beautiful is it to see a little piece of me.

  • The Call

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    I had it made, I was nine months pregnant with my daughter and moving in with the love of my life. It was suppose to be the new start I’ve always wanted and wrote about. It was a sunny Saturday I was out with Derrick moving things into our new home. We were cleaning and […]

    The Call